Category: Shadow

The Witch Wound

I want to talk about this for a bit.

This keeps coming up around me so I think it’s important to get my thoughts around it out, if only for myself.

Maybe it’s because it’s spooky season – our season.

This time of year The Burning Times are often on my mind.

If you’re unaware, this is often what witches call the inquisition, which occurred in Europe between the years of 1478 to 1834. 

That’s 356 years of horrors.

The Inquisition’s goal? “Purify” the land from evil spread by the Devil and his minions.

The actual result of the inquisition was millions of people, mostly women, dead.

But not until after they were tortured. 

Many died during their torture.

Have you heard the term “the third degree” in reference to questioning someone aggressively?

That’s from the inquisition.

That was the level of torture that would kill a person.

It was to be used on those who kept insisting they were innocent.

No one, once accused, was allowed to be innocent.

The Inquisition, and everyone who took part in it, were the true evils raveging the lands.

I won’t go into all the documented atrocities – they’re easy enough to find should you want to have nightmares for the next several nights.

That’s not what I wanted to talk about, but I did want to set the stage for where many witch wounds come from. (There’s a near 100% chance I’ll talk about religious harms in a post at some point.)

What is a witch wound?

My basic definition is the fear of retribution due to being a magickal person.

I believe many of us lived through The Burning Times. Maybe several times over since it literally spanned centuries.

Our souls remember, even if our conscious minds don’t.

Additionally, science shows us that trauma can be written into our DNA.

356 years of fear mongering and hate? 

Watching your friends, the local healer, your mother or grandmother being accused of being a consort of the Devil? Seeing what happened to those who were accused?

Fearing someone may name you in a desperate bid to end their torture and be allowed to finally die?

Sounds pretty traumatic to me.

It is still not safe in many areas of the world to practice witchcraft.

Ostracisation and death are still very real possibilities if someone is accused of being a witch (and it’s likely they’re not witches at all – just like old times).

So this fear of being seen as the magickal people we are is ingrained in our very genetic makeup and within our very souls.

This is the witch wound.

And we must heal.

We must do so collectively.

We must embrace that fear. That deep knowledge of the atrocities that humans can visit upon one another out of fear, misunderstanding, and hate.

We must love it. We must show it that we are safe now.

We are safe.

We can honor our gods and goddesses (if we have them).

We can practice our magick and love nature.

We can heal others as we heal ourselves.

We must do this for all the people who cannot.

We must do this for all those murdered in the name of the Abrahamic god.

We must do this for the generations yet to come.

The lives yet to be lived.

They deserve to know they are safe.

They deserve to connect with the divine without fear of retribution.

They deserve to know that pain is history, but that we must never allow such horrors to be visited on the world again.

But, how can we do that?

This is Shadow Work loves, albeit of a different sort than we’re used to.

I’ll be starting with tarot.

I’ll be doing some past life readings to uncover some of this trauma.

I will allow my guides to, well, guide me to what I need to heal those traumas.

When I have moments of fear in the here and now around being a witch (and I do) I will remind myself that no one in my world can harm me. 

They can stay or they can go, but they cannot hurt me.

If my blood family still can’t handle it, they can move along.

I have built a beautiful online chosen family, and they know me for who I am.

This healing will take time, nothing like this happens overnight. 

And that’s ok.

I’m ready.

Are you?

Tarot and Mental Health – The Moon

Tarot and Mental Health – The Moon

I had intended for this week’s post to be about The Tower. But that post just wouldn’t come out when I tried to write it.

The Moon wanted to come first. Maybe because we have a supermoon lunar eclipse this week?

This is a weird card my friends, I won’t lie. But I love it.

And at first glance, it’s easy to wonder what it has to do with anything in life, let alone mental health.

The moon in this card is actually a solar eclipse.

Historically in many cultures throughout the world, an eclipse (lunar or solar) was a bad omen. 

Think about it: day abruptly interrupted by a really weird night, only to return to day again (or chunks of the moon disappearing and/or the whole thing turning red), and you don’t know why. 

Scary stuff indeed.

The main theme of this card is fear. 

But it also asks us to look at who we are, to look at the face we show the world, and to question everything.

This card can mean many things, but ultimately for me it speaks to our Shadow.

You probably understand by now that Shadow is kinda my thing.

I think it’s one of the most important, and most overlooked, aspects of mental health.

Let’s recap a few of the ways Shadow can manifest shall we?

Projection: Seeing in others the aspects of yourself you dislike (often without “knowing” you also have these traits. Classic example? The raging homophobe who lives deeeeeep in that closet of theirs).

Anger. Anger at yourself. Your failings. Your attitude. Your everything. Everyone else sucks too, and they may need to know it.

Shame. Fear. Self doubt. Self sabotage. Self loathing.

All that and more lives in your Shadow. 

And The Moon? The Moon wants you to look at it all.

Let’s look at a few other aspects of this card. Because again, it’s just weird.

The path: That’s our life’s journey. We must walk this path. In so doing, we become our higher self.

The mountains: That’s the end of our journey. When at last we reach our higher self, we will find ourselves in those mountains.

The dog: That’s our good self we show to the world. The face we show for approval and to get people to like and care about us.

The wolf: That’s our base instincts. They don’t care what other people think. They just act.

That random ass lobster???

THAT is our shadow in all its glory.

Look at it. It’s kind of ugly. Not friendly looking. And don’t think it won’t pinch the crap out of you if you try to get near it.

But, if it were to climb onto the land in front of it, it would be perfectly situated to journey with the dog and the wolf to the mountains.

That is what this card is asking us to do. 

It is pushing us to look at what lives in our darkest depths, bring it out into the open, and teach ourselves to grow.

The Moon knows that’s scary. It knows we want to toss that lobster back in the water and run off the wolf.

It knows we want to pretend we are the dog. But even the dog is affected by The Moon, just look at it howling.

There is no escaping from the aspects of ourselves that we need to confront and heal.

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Tarot and Mental Health: 9 of Swords

Tarot and Mental Health: 9 of Swords

May‌ ‌is‌ ‌Mental‌ ‌Health‌ ‌Awareness‌ ‌month.‌ 

I decided to continue with the tarot theme to show how it taps into our psyche and can be a tool to explore trauma, shadow, depression, and anxiety.

We’re starting with the 9 of Swords.

This is the card when anxiety is high.

The subject of this card is sitting bolt upright in bed, their hands covering their face as if they’re crying or recalling a terrible memory.

There is no sleep. There is no rest. There is only the racing mind.

These thoughts build upon themselves. Growing and growing until they feel like they’ll consume us.

This is a mental battle, and the enemy is us. 

Or at least it feels that way.

We’ve all experienced some version of this sleepless night (or series of nights).

When we’re in this headspace it can be hard to find the light.

When this card comes up in a reading, I don’t give platitudes about it’s always darkest before the dawn or lights at the end of tunnels.

That is beyond unhelpful. I know because I’ve been there.

I offer my clients the space to feel what they feel, knowing they are supported and understood.

But because I’ve been there I know that it can get better, but not without effort.

Usually this card is just run of the mill anxiety that will pass. 

I help my clients to reframe what’s going on in their minds and in their lives so they can find that light themselves.

Distracting yourself from whatever is on your mind, guidance from tarot or a trusted friend about how to address the situation, or shadow and mindset work is usually what it takes to get to the other side.

But sometimes? Sometimes it’s more, and that’s ok.

Sometimes you need a professional to help and support you through the darkness.

There is zero shame in getting the help we need to be healthy. 

Mental health is just as, if not more important, than physical health.

If you cannot seem to dig yourself out of the hole you’ve found yourself in, seeking out a mental health professional is imperative.

Please reach out to a professional in your area if this is more than simple anxiety that will pass.

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